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St Joseph’s Lilies…
Photo Credit to: thegardeningblog.co.za Someone phoned Colin and told him it was okay to bring the boys home… My friend Judy arrived. I can’t remember for love or money what she said. I do remember...
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Never gone away…
Vic and her boys in healthier days! I have received countless beautiful messages of encouragement, love, compassion and caring on my blog. Vic read my blog every day. The last couple of blogs I...
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My Mom is a Survivor
This poem may have been written by my precious Vic…. She used to worry so about me surviving her death. Our domestic helper has worked for me for the past 18 years. Bettie is part of the family....
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now and forever
Today at times I felt as if I was suffocating. It felt as if the grief had grabbed me by the throat and was strangling life out of me. My heart physically ached. In the infamous words of Queen...
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“Live like you were dying”– Tim McGraw
Vic and Esther 8.1.2013 I read this post today – http://daysnet.wordpress.com/2013/02/03/we-need-to-step-back-and-just-breathe/ I always remember the Tim McGraw song “LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING” He...
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The process of preparing for death
My beautiful baby girl A while ago I read the following “When you, a friend, or a loved one is diagnosed with a terminal illness, a process is begun: the process of preparing for death. For many, this...
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The boys and their grief…
Vic and her beautiful boys Today, Jared (16) was called in by the school psychiatrist. The psychiatrist spoke to him at length about the stages of grief. Jared loves facts. Thanks to Google I am well...
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I love you Angel Child
Vic and her boys on her 38th birthday I am at a stage where it feels as if it is impossible to recover from the pain of losing Vic. I am told that the grief will gradually get better and become less...
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We were one
24.12.2012 I had my first counselling session with the Hospice psychologist. It was terribly difficult and emotional. So often when Vic and I chatted Vic would say “I am so worried about you Mommy…”...
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Grief attack
Jared and his Mommy – 10 days before she died I have sunk to a new low this weekend. I had every intention to attend church this morning. I woke up with tears streaming down my cheeks. I must have...
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Eulogies
Some of Vic’s flowers in church Today I read a very moving eulogy that Denise, one of my blogger friends, posted. It is a eulogy that she wrote and presented at her beloved son’s funeral. I...
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100 days of searing pain….
Does time really heal all wounds? Mothers who have lost a child to death assure us that “it will get better.” Friends and loved ones have started telling me that “it is time to get over it and get on...
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I feel death coming closer…
Photo Credit to: thegardeningblog.co.za Today I read the post of a very dear blogger friend. She is an unbelievably strong and resilient woman who is dying from congenital heart failure. She is a...
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I WANT MY CHILD BACK!!!
Yesterday morning I teared up – again. Danie asked “And now? What’s wrong?” “Just missing Vic” I said “Shame” he said with sadness in his voice. “I miss her too” We spoke about how my grief had...
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Jon-Daniel writes…I wish
Jon-Daniel is going through a rough time. He posted this on his Blackberry Status. I wish there were visiting hours in Heaven. Miss you my little angel. We all do!
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Date of cremation….
I am busy with my child’s estate. It is absolutely horrible!!!!!! Today, 131 days after Vic died, I have to complete an insurance form. The question I cannot answer is “Date of Cremation”. I did not...
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When the soul leaves the body
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auoJV4re3nU When a child is born we laugh, cry with joy and celebrate; when a loved one dies we cry with heartbreak and mourn. We spend a lifetime celebrating life....
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Compassionate friends say…
Sixteen years ago today, my beloved mother lost her battle against the septicaemia ravaging her tiny little body. I woke up this morning thinking “well at least this year Mom has Dad and Vic with...
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